Pushing Boundaries

The thing about comfort zones is that everyone has one, but they're all set at different levels, and they are constantly changing. Mine is completely different to yours, and it's also completely different to how it was just 6 months ago.

I used to feel completely out of my comfort zone when thrown into a social circle where there were a few people I didn't know. The feeling of thinking I can't make conversation, not knowing what to ask, and what if they don't like me? What if it's awkward? What if, what if. I hate the 'what if's', they circle around in my head, wasting my time and energy on something that will likely never happen.

Today, as I sit at home some 16,516kms from my home in Brisbane, Australia, I focus on the what is. What is happening right now.

I remember this moment so clearly, I'd just started playing the Intro (ft. Zola Jesus) track of M83's album Hurry Up, We're Dreaming. I felt a surreal calm wash over me - A new adventure has just begun.

I remember this moment so clearly, I'd just started playing the Intro (ft. Zola Jesus) track of M83's album Hurry Up, We're Dreaming. I felt a surreal calm wash over me - A new adventure has just begun.

After flying half way around the world, on my own, and trying finding my feet in a new (really big!) city, I am finally here. In my London home. I've settled into a new, challenging job, I've found a gym I love and am kicking goals there, and I feel like I've found my groove. I've made friends, I've adventured solo, I've talked to strangers, I've thrown myself into uncomfortable situations, I've had a melt down or two - I've come through it all on my own, and feeling amazed.

Someone asked me yesterday why I flew half way around the world just to work and train (like I do back home). But why not? Not everyone fits into your stereotype of an Aussie working bar jobs, living on Migoreng noodles and spending all their money on flights and hostels. I love the fact that I have a job here that challenges me, has forced me develop my technical skills and gives me something new to manage each week. This job helps me afford the weekend trips to nearby countries whenever I please, plus also keeps me learning and growing skill set.

My goal for this adventure was to get out of my comfort zone, from there I had no other plans. Getting on that plane was one of the hardest things I've done, and I was mess before hand, not knowing what to expect on the other end, but it's also the best things I have done for myself by far.

This is the most freedom and control I feel I have ever had with my life, and I love it. I needed this.

Pushing the boundaries of your comfort zone can be challenging, there will always be a moment of doubt, when the 'what if's' will start, and you feel like you've already got one foot out the door, but push through. You'll thank yourself later.

I will always push boundaries - mentally, physically and emotionally. I will not give in to the 'what if's', I have better things that deserve my time... like dancing.